Starting IVF? Sharing our daily journal during our In Vitro Fertilization process to give you an idea of what to expect your first month of IVF.
Letters to Our Future Children
To be honest I had never thought about blogging our infertility adventures. Jake and I wanted to YouTube our infertility adventures and had planned on that, but never blogging. Last month when I put together a blog post on “how to get out a funk“, as I was writing it I realized it was very therapeutic for me.
My friend Jenica Parcell shared her infertility adventures on her 3rd round of IVF on her blog, I never got a chance to read any of her posts until now. I spent an entire evening catching up and reading all her posts on infertility. She wrote about how they got to In Vitro Fertilization round 3, questions and answers, and letters to her future baby. Jenica did such a great job on everything it inspired me to write about our experiences. Thinking about writing about our journey makes me excited! I know some things will be harder to share than others, but I am excited for this journey! If you missed the start of us sharing our infertility journey and how it came to be we are doing IVF, click here.
Growing up my sweet dad would stick love notes to my door so when I would wake up in the morning I would see them. They were always short and sweet, but would always express how much he loves me. I have stacks of yellow ruled 8.5×11 paper notes from my dad the he wrote me growing up. They are such treasures to me, so I hope one day these letters will be treasures to our child.
So here it goes….
To Our Future Babies….
Dear Little Babes,
We love you so much already and are so excited for you to come to our home! Starting this IVF process makes me giddy, excited, nervous and thankful! Thinking about how we are moving forward in finding a way to have you in our home also make me happy! Your dad and I officially started IVF. We don’t know where this journey will lead us, or if this is how you will come to us, but we are hopeful.
I want to share with you a little story of how I know you are in heaven waiting to come down to us. A week after my sweet father passed away, I had a moment where I saw you with my dad in heaven. This was such special moment for me, and a tender mercy I received from my Heavenly Father. I never saw your face, or what you looked like, if you were a girl or boy, but I knew who you were; you were my child. I hesitated writing this down in a public place because it was such a special moment for me, but I never want to forget what made me motivated to start working on finding a way to get you to our home.
It’s been over 2 years since that moment, which means I know you have been waiting for some time to come to our home. The day you come to our home, will be an amazing day for all of us! Knowing you are able to be with my dad in heaven right now is very special to me. You are in very good hands 🙂 Will you tell your grandpa hi from me?
I wanted to share with you some updates in our process to getting you here on earth:
Our First Month of In Vitro Fertilization in Review
IVF Day 1 – December 3, 2018
Today Jake went to the pharmacy and picked our prescriptions. The birth control pills start today, and the rest of the medications are for later in the month. This was a big day for us! I literally sat and cried so filled with gratitude and emotion for starting this process! We have been looking forward to starting IVF for a few years now, and now it’s all really here! So…. that officially makes December 3rd, 2018, one memorable day for the books!
IVF Day 4- December 6, 2018
Surprised how sick I have been feeling on birth control, but think it’s just because it is foreign to my body. Announced on YouTube today we are starting IVF. Feeling overly grateful for all the outpouring of love and support! I feel like I am not alone in this adventure and have an entire army to cheer me on! It was a little nerve wracking to announce we sharing “live” during this entire process, but I knew I wanted to share our journey with others! I am so grateful we have opened up and shared this process with others. It has made it really exciting for us and wonderful to have the support and love of so many!
I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow, so I called my nurse to see if I need to do anything. In this process I am learning that is great to pick up the phone and make calls and ask questions. The nurse said to take an aspirin before I come in tomorrow.
IVF Day 5- December 7, 2018
Today I went to the doctors to do a water ultrasound. They wanted to check and make sure everything is looking good so you have a nice home to be in for 9 months. The nurses were really kind. I wore my bright pink Hello Kitty Converse Jake got me for my birthday, and sweater with a horse on it. When I woke up for my appointment Jake was so cute and said, “Wear cute clothes that make you happy today!” He knows me so well 🙂
The appointment went well. They said everything is looking good and should be good to move forward as scheduled. The nurses said the doctor would look at the results and let me know if anything changes. When I was in for the water ultrasound, the nurses were not able to get the needle through my uterus lining at first and had to bend the needle to get it through the lining during the 2nd go around. They said my uterus lining was a little thick since I just started up on birth control. During my appointment it wasn’t very painful just a little uncomfortable. So that was nice!
When I got home from my appointment I could barely move. Luckily pjs and heat packs came to the rescue! I am so grateful for heat pads! Greatest invention ever made! Jake was also able to come to the rescue today to and take Zeke to training class.
I learned today I do not want to go to any more doctors appointments on my own again. Jake is the most supportive husband and would of been there for the appointments but had work conflicts. For our first few years of marriage I had some health situations that put me in and out of doctors offices. Not having family that lives by us and just moving to a new area at the time, I have done many years of doctors appointments by myself.
Going to appointments on my own wasn’t bad, but wasn’t fun and I like fun! Jake got it worked out with our schedules so that he can come to all future appointments with me. That makes me really excited to know for all my future doctors appointments I’ll have a buddy with me 🙂 I also had some friends offer to come to appointments with me too, so I think I’ll take them up on that!
Day 8 IVF- December 10, 2018
So far in the IVF process I am on day 8 of birth control. I’m super grateful to be feeling a little better today.
This month, even though it’s the holidays I have tried to keep my schedule as clear as possible. I am so grateful I haven’t planned too much, and work from home so I can rest and take it easy. For these next 2 months, I told myself it is all about enjoying this process and having fun with it! So I am doing everything I can to relax, enjoy, have fun and be grateful for this process all at the same time!
IVF Day 9- December 11, 2018
A few friends that had my same doctor mentioned doing acupuncture. They said it really helped them, so I called my nurse today and she said that it would be a great option for us. I asked who Dr. Faulk recommended and went ahead and booked some appointments. When I called to schedule some appointments the Acupuncturist mentioned we can use our HSA card to pay for it too! Booyah! Acupuncture has intrigued me so I am super excited to go to my first appointment. It also sounds relaxing to, so that is a win-win in my book!
IVF Day 10- December 12, 2018
For my upcoming appointments I want to feel good and look cute so I ordered all new Hello Kitty Converse for them! I went a little crazy and ordered 3 pairs (one, two, three)… but is it crazy I wished I ordered more?!?!? Hehehe Jake was cute and thought I should get some fun sweaters too, since that’s pretty much the only thing I will have on during appointments. Isn’t he the best?! With all the holiday sales I scored some great sweaters 50% off at Forever 21 and stocked up! I also got a few new pairs of Disney pjs since I know that is what I’ll be actually living in next month once I get home from appointments!
IVF Day 17- December 19, 2018
Dear Little Babes, today a very special delivery arrived! Today I needed to be home to sign for the package coming since it’s full of all of our injection medications for In-Vitro. I have been feeling pretty sick still from the water ultrasound and tired from a loss of blood, but so grateful for heating pads and so grateful to be home to rest today!
At noon the doorbell rang and it was package time! Running down the stairs to get the package I was a little nervous because I have been because I had no idea what the injections looked like or would be. When I opened the door, on the other end was a lady with a smaller box than I imagined and the biggest smile on her face. She was so friendly and I am so grateful for her kindness in that moment. I signed for the package, got some scissors and gently opened the box.
Inside the box was a lot of things I had no idea what they were! There was also a big shiny silver padded envelope that I opened up right away because it said to open and refrigerate on it. Most of the bag was filled with ice packs and then had 3 small boxes of medications in it that needed to be refrigerated. The rest of the items in the package I stared and didn’t know what to do with it all, so I put it all in a bag and waited for Jake to get home. I also called my nurse because I wasn’t sure if I was doing everything right and wanted to make sure all the medications wouldn’t spoil. First timer here 🙂
Opening the box I was surprised how shakey it made me. All of sudden things got real! REAL and EXCITING!
When Jake got home and we did some research on what all the medications were and did. We both literally had no idea what any of the medications were, but we know we know will be pros by the end of this 🙂 Today I am so grateful that the shots aren’t as scary as they seemed in my mind. I actually got really excited after looking through them all and can’t wait to start injections! Really though, I am ready! We have been waiting for this moment and so excited for it to be coming soon!
Today was a good reminder to me that sometimes things seem scary in our mind, but when we face them, it really isn’t a big deal after all 🙂
IVF Day 18- December 20, 2018
Dear Little Babes, today has been a wonderful day and FULL of tender mercies! I have felt so much love from my Savior pouring out!
I went in for my first acupuncture appointment and when I walked into the clinic, a friend from Instagram was in the waiting room. She was so cute and told me she had been thinking about me and had been wanting to reach out! Her and her hubby had done IVF several times and even had my same doctor! She was so kind and sent me a text sharing her experiences and her info if I ever wanted to talk. Talk about a blessing from Heavenly Father running into her!
Can I just say how much I love acupuncture?! I had so much fun and LOVED IT! Bea who is my new acupuncturist has the best accent and is so sweet! It was really great talking to her. I have still been bleeding every day since I had the water ultrasound so she did a pressure point in my toes that is supposed to be good for that to help stop the bleeding.
After my appointment I headed to the pharmacy to pick up my 2nd prescription of birth control pills. I am not supposed to take the placebo pills, so time to start another pack in a few days.
Dad needed to do another sperm analysis test since it has been over a year since his last test. He went into the doctor’s office to pick up a little “take home” kit to bring back to the clinic in the next few days. While he was there he got an appointment scheduled for me to make sure everything is still looking good since I am still bleeding. The nurse said everything is probably just fine, but it has been a lot of blood, and so for peace of mind we wanted to go in. Excited to go to the doctors tomorrow and see how things are going.
Yesterday I posted on Insta Stories our medications arrived! My cute friend Emily Brady sent me a text and asked if she and her hubby Brett could come walk us through all our injections! (Emily has done IVF 4 times, you can read about her journey here!) Can we talk about a tender mercy?!?!? Thank you Emily, you are the best! Brett and Emily spent a good few hours with us walking through what each medication was for, how to put the shots together, tips and tricks, and so much more! Holy cow, that was SOOO HELPFUL! Today I am so grateful for sweet friends who are so willing to help and love! After Brett and Emily left, your dad and I felt so ready to do this! I am so excited to start injections and it can’t come soon enough!
IVF Day 19- December 21, 2018
Hey Little Babes, it’s been a great morning! Guess what?! The acupuncture worked, I pretty much stopped bleeding! There is still a little, but not bad! Went to the doctors and got an ultrasound and my blood drawn. The nurse called a few hours later and said everything is looking great and we are still on schedule! Wahoo! It was actually a tender mercy I have been bleeding so much. I shed my uterus lining so it is much thinner now and in even better condition to move forward. Isn’t that amazing how things work out sometimes?!?!
Little Babes, I think about you often and want you to know how much I love you. YOU ARE WORTH IT! Every time I am in pain or my body is hurting I want to let you know it puts a smile on my face, it really does! It makes me smile because I know we are getting one step closer to you! I love you so much and can’t wait to be your mom!
IVF Day 22- December 24, 2018
Hi Little Babes! Happy Christmas Eve!!! We had such a fun day with our cute dog Zeke getting ready for Santa to come! We had so much fun writing letters to Santa, making Gingerbread houses and reading about Christ’s Birth! Your dad asked Santa for triplets this year… let’s see if he delivers 😉 We can’t wait to do all those fun activities with you soon! For dinner we made a killer cheeseboard, that was tasty and fun!
I had an acupuncture appointment today as well and this one was fun because the needles were all over my back! Your dad was cracking up seeing funny little needles poking out of me everywhere; including my head! It was really relaxing, I almost fell asleep!
IVF Day 29- December 31, 2018
Hi Little Babes, it is the last day of the year! We have a feeling 2019 is going to be one of the best years of our lives! We’re ready to start the New Year off with a BANG; actually a few new Bang’s would be great! Trust us, if there is one of you we will be happy, but we want a big family so the more of you that come to us at once the better!
Today your dad and I started our Z-packs! This is to get rid of any unwanted bacterias in our bodies to give you guys the best success possible.
I also had an acupuncture appointment as well today. This one ended up being on my belly and lower legs. After they put the needles in they put a heat lamp on you and with all the all peaceful music as well as the water feature, I get so relaxed! It is fantastic! Just for the relaxation alone, I have really enjoyed the acupuncture!
Well thats a wrap for our month of December! It was an exciting month for us and we are so excited for January! Let’s do this! Time to start 2019 off with a BANG!!! Literally and figuratively… hahah 🙂 For more of our infertility updates and posts, you can catch them all here.
If you are going through infertility, don’t be shy to reach out and say hello to us! We would love to support you on your journey and answer any questions you have!